Stuck in Wonderland

There are so many things I wish I could do. The funny thing is most of them border on crazy or completely impossible. That’s the funny thing about dreaming; only you are able to set the limits of your mind. You control how far your thoughts wander and how real you perceive things to be. Sometimes, I just want to get away from all of it. Away from the hustle and bustle and the drama of my seemingly busy life and the problems that have arranged itself accordingly on a shelf in my head.  Basically, I want an escape from reality… even if it’s just for a little while.

I’m sure that most know the story behind the little girl who got lost in a dream and found herself in a topsy-turvy world where animals and flowers talk, decks of cards are people, creepy cats with a big grin appear out of thin air and the 364 unbirthdays are more important than that 1 birthday you have in a year. But even so, she was able to escape from this droning world into Wonderland. Hence began the story of little Alice Liddell, STUCK in Wonderland.

If I had a world of my own, everything would be nonsense. Nothing would be what it is because everything would be what it isn't. And contrary-wise; what it is it wouldn't be, and what it wouldn't be, it would. You see?

In my life, there are moments when I just sit and stare into space. Sometimes, my mind is a void. I think about absolutely NOTHING. I just am. Other times however, I am blown away by vivid pictures of places that in reality do not exist. It is a world I make to escape everyone… and everything. It may sound crazy but in a way, I think it’s magical. In reality, there will always be times when you feel like you can’t be yourself. Even if you say you can, instances occur wherein you will have to slightly re-invent yourself to fit in. In the real world, we sometimes feel trapped and limited to the norm. Jamie Paolinetti says, “Limitations live only in our minds. But if we use our imaginations, our possibilities become limitless.”

We all need an outlet in life. For some, it’s music, for others it’s writing, reading or even cooking or sports; but for me it’s something much simpler. I don’t even have to exert so much effort, cash out on so much money or travel far away.  It’s all in my mind. See, it’s important for one to escape the harsh truth of reality. Wonderland is a means to get away from all the jerks and freaks that come in and out of our lives.  Truth be told, it’s always easier to hide behind a wall of protection; a place that has become your comfort zone away from reality. Sometimes, we feel so limited to what’s actually out there that we end up creating an alternate world. You portray a completely different life where you are able to freely express yourself. This world becomes a canvas where you are the artist and you have all the control. There are no qualms, no hesitations. I can conjure up creative situations that can be exciting as well as entertaining or scenarios that calm my frazzled nerves as well as speed up time whenever occasions threaten to make my dreary afternoons even longer, a daunting feeling of it lingering until eternity.  As they say, dreams are powered by the imagination where by entering an alternative world, one can be allowed to better convey who they truly are instead of living by a false concept of reality.

In a way, I think that everyone has their own version of Wonderland. It’s nice to get away.  But at the end of the day, reality will inevitably set in. Wonderland is beautiful. A place that is truly yours; but we must not forget to LIVE. In this life, we cannot change the cards we are dealt with. We can only hope that we strategize well and win in the end. A brilliant man by the name of Randy Pausch once said, “It’s not really about how to achieve your dreams. It’s about how to lead your life. If you lead your life the right way, the karma will take care of itself and the dreams will come to you.”

In retrospect, Wonderland isn’t as far away as people make it out to be. Sometimes, when I’m feeling stumped, I like to daze and liberate my mind.  After all, dreams are one of those rare things in this world that are FREE.  It has no limitations, no rules, no hindrances that exist unless you want them to.  So, with that…WHY SCRIMP?! Never lose that child-like wonder in you.  Whether you’re 7 or 97, Wonderland is always just a hop, skip and a jump away. So when you dream, dream beautifully and dream BIG.  Should you be so fortunate to get half your dream in this lifetime, then you can say you have hit the jackpot and reached the stars.  After all, how many could actually be so lucky that at the road’s end you are one of the privileged who will have lived your own “Happily Ever After”.

Note: I would just like to thank my cousin Tracy for helping me out with this essay. She helped piece together my thoughts. 🙂 Love you Trace! 😀