Another List for 30 More Days…

I saw this challenge on a couple of blogs that I visited.  It’s a challenge where you have a list of things to do in 30 days.  You don’t have to do them all, but it would be pretty cool if you could give it a shot. 🙂

I know I haven’t exactly been the poster girl for these things as I have yet to re-start my 30 days of Truth blog project but this seems fairly easier than that so I thought I’d give it a try.

I’m not exactly sure what the rules are but I think you’re allowed to do more than one thing on this list per day.

  1. Send a surprise, I think you’re fabulous card to someone
  2. Unplug for a whole day
  3. Get a massage
  4. Flirt with a stranger *brief eye contact, smile and look away*
  5. Go for a stroll after dinner
  6. Have champagne for no reason other than to celebrate life
  7. Set a timer and write down something you’re grateful for every hour for a day
  8. Remove 5 things from your environment that doesn’t make you feel beautiful
  9. Do something completely out of character
  10. Invite someone you want to get to know for lunch
  11. Kiss someone
  12. Read a poem to someone you love
  13. Watch a foreign film
  14. Throw a slumber party
  15. Send your worst enemy flowers anonymously
  16. Donate $10 to charity or in my case, 400 pesos.
  17. Put something beautiful on a blank wall you see everyday
  18. Spend an afternoon reading
  19. Have a fancy midday luncheon complete with cloth napkins and wine
  20. Spend an afternoon taking care of pesky issues then treat yourself to a steaming mug of coffee or tea
  21. Donate 5 items out of your closet that don’t make you feel stunningly beautiful
  22. Buy an utterly frivolous piece of lingerie
  23. Get rid of 5 items in your home that don’t bring you pleasure
  24. Hold a baby
  25. Read a biography of your favorite screen star or the bravest most badass chick
  26. Write down your wildest dreams
  27. Create an occasion to wear your most outrageous shoes (maybe throw in a wig too)
  28. Make lemonade
  29. Jump into a body of water
  30. Give someone a hug and wait for them to let go first
  31. Research something that sparks your curiosity.  If you are still curious after 15 minutes delve deeper
  32. Forgive yourself
  33. Forgive someone else
  34. Spend an hour in silent reflection
  35. Select a part of your home and organize it.
  36. Upgrade your sleepwear for a night or go Marilyn Style
  37. Pretend for a day you are as amazing as you want to be.
  38. Do ONE thing you’ve always wanted to do.
  39. Go to a playground and swing on the swing set.
  40. Bake a cake.

Sounds easy enough… We’ll see how far I’ll get this time! 🙂

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A Million Times NO! (Day 6)

I know it seems like I missed Day 5. I was supposed to write about something I hope to do in my life. Now before you get all judge-y on me, let me just say that those entries (yep, I got more than one) have already been posted way before I even found out about this blog project. You can choose from the following posts. Part 1 of Travel, Part 2 of Travel (if I haven’t made my intentions clear yet… I would really love to TRAVEL) and something about Jaws (I promise it’s more interesting than it sounds)

With that, I’ve decided to jump right into Day 6 of the Blog Project.

Day 6 is about something you hope never to do. Before I get into that though, I just wanted to say how incredible it is to be given the chance to immerse myself in all the beauty this world has to offer. The best part though, is being able to share each day with the people that mean the most to you. Every single day is a blessing that should never be taken for granted.

This statement leads me to answer the 6th question on the list. In my life… Even though it may sound selfish… I hope I never have to say goodbye to anyone I love.

I am seriously bad at saying goodbyes. A perfect example would be having to say goodbye to my cousin/aunt, Jill (it’s a long story. I shall explain it in another post) every time she has to go back home to the US. It’s always the same story (give or take.) She comes to visit, we pick up where we left off and have the most amazing time and a few days later, I’m helping her pack her bags. It’s sad but, it has to be done.

Now before you start thinking about how much of a weirdo I am (because I know it’s running through some people’s minds right now,) I’d like to stress that I am not that intense about goodbyes. Yeah I cry and wave at airports (tell me that’s not a cliché) and I cried when Harry Potter ended (I just had to squeeze that in there) but I can promise that tears will not be shed every time my Mom has to head to the office or my grandmother has to go to the grocery. I’m sooo not that shallow (sorry to disappoint)

The goodbyes I’m talking about are more of a permanent nature.

 

If you haven’t figured out what I mean yet, then you lead a very sad life indeed. The “permanent goodbyes” are the ones that can’t be changed and can’t be taken back. (this would be the perfect time to have a light bulb click somewhere in the back of your mind) 🙂

The thing is, you never have control over when that day will come (I refuse to say death so we’ll just call it Mort) One day you could be sipping coffee with that person and the next, you’re wearing black and bawling your eyes out because Mort decides to pay your little circle of love a visit.

Speaking from personal experience, losing someone to Mort definitely tips the pain scale at an alarming rate. The lucky ones slowly recover from it but, there are those that spend the rest of their lives feeling empty inside.

 

Among all the possible fears I will have to face, losing someone I love definitely tops the list of things I hope I never have to do. Granted, I have done it before (and those moments probably belong to the top half of my worst life experiences list) and know it’s inevitable but, having to go through life with that taunting your every moves really makes you think twice about open your heart to someone.

Just thinking about Mort scares the bejeezus out of me but then again, going through that is The Circle of Life. As they say, “It’s better to have loved and lost than to never have loved at all.”

Every waking moment is a blessing. Treasure it! 😀

 

May the road rise up to meet you, may the wind be ever at your back.  May the sun shine warm upon your face and the rain fall softly on your fields.  And until we meet again, may God hold you in the hollow of his hand.

– An Irish Blessing

I’m okay now. You should be too. (Day 4)

My mind still refuses to shut down so, instead of postponing the entry for Day 4 (which was my original plan,) I’ve decided to delay my before bedtime shower program (appropriately label as such because I sing and dance in the shower,) plop down on the wooden stool in front of the laptop (which isn’t very comfortable mind you) and think up a couple of witty (fingers crossed) remarks for this particular entry. 🙂

After forgiving myself for all my shortcomings, I now have to turn towards forgiving other people for all the “pain” they’ve caused me (on purpose or otherwise.)

I’m generally a forgiving person but I must admit, I never really forget. That can probably be considered a fault to some extent because there are times when I tend to bring back those aching feelings of hurt and betrayal. I don’t really act on it but sometimes the feelings do resurface. I know it’s wrong but sometimes you just can’t suppress them.

 

This post seems like the perfect opportunity to lighten the load. There are still some things I know I won’t be able to let go of (or refuse to let go of. I have yet to decide) but there are some that have reached their limit and should be sent back to the past where they belong.

NOTE: No names shall be mentioned because:

  1. I’d rather not piss people off.
  2. It’ll dig up memories that have already been buried.
  3. I have absolutely no desire to make new frenemies.

Having said that, I shall now start my list. Just so we’re clear, I’ve also decided to make this entry my VERY LAST rant. By the time I type those last few words, all will be completely forgiven. I PROMISE!!!

 

  • I forgive the people who’ve squeezed an apology out of me even though I didn’t really do anything wrong.
  • I forgive those who’ve told me half truths and full lies. (Some to my face, others behind my back)
  • I forgive the people who look down on me and think that I’m not good enough to breathe the same air they do. (Sorry to have to be the one to tell you but, unless you move to Jupiter or some other planet, breathing the same air is unavoidable.)
  • I forgive the person who suddenly decided to give up on me and as a result, caused me so much self-doubt. (Yes Queen of the Night, I’m talking about YOU!)
  • I forgive the people who have forgotten that friendship isn’t just a one-sided thing.
  • I forgive the people who were so quick to judge me even if they had yet to actually meet me and get to know me.

And Lastly…

  • I forgive the people who have decided to listen and believe stupid rumors instead of actually finding out the truth.

 

Now I know what some of you must be thinking… Is she even serious about the whole forgiving thing?! The answer would be YES. I promised I’d let it go and I have. 🙂

 

 

“Sincere forgiveness isn’t colored with expectations that the other person apologize or change. Don’t worry whether or not they finally understand you. Love them and release them. Life feeds back truth to people in its own way and time.”

– Sara Paddison

 

With that I bid you adieu and goodnight! CHEERS!!! 😀

It’s okay ME. We’ll, work it out! (Day 3)

I’ve pretty much mastered the art of apologies. In my 23 years, I’ve probably apologized for something at least once every day.

Now before I go on, I’d just like to make it perfectly clear that I’m not some psycho out to get everyone. I apologize for the little things too like accidentally whacking someone on the head or stepping on someone’s foot in a crowded train. Regardless of the “crime”, the “I’m so sorry” speech should still accompany the awkward glance, embarrassed face and half-smile. It’s just how the whole combo thing works. 🙂

Having said that, I look back and realize that the list goes on forever. That makes one hell of an inventory for apologies.Just think… If all goes well, I’ve still got so many more years left. (And yes, that is a good thing. 😀 ) 

“I’m sorry” is something most people say but, I have come to realize that I have yet to say those words to myself. I kinda figured, “If I screw up, I’m the only person who gets hurt. No harm, no foul.” After thinking it through though, I’ve come to understand something.

If you can apologize to all the other people that you will most likely never see again, how can you live your life, knowing that you’ve put yourself down because you’ve made some mistakes along the way.

 

With this in mind, I have decided to forgive myself for the things I can no longer change.

  • I forgive myself for lost opportunities.

There are loads of things I wish I pursued when I was younger. So many chances I let slip by and so many dreams that have gone the opposite direction from where I was headed. I’ve decided to let those things go. It does ZERO good to dwell in the past. Moving forward is really the only way to go. 🙂

  • I forgive myself for not thinking things through and planning ahead.

Again I am forced to stress my age. I am 23 and I’ve only just started trying to remedy the things I’ve screwed up. Taking a leap of faith isn’t bad but it does become tiresome when the leaps turn out to be leaps off a cliff. I’ve come to realize that thinking things through might not be such a bad thing after all.

  • I forgive myself for moments when I gave up too easy and settled.

I’m not the most diligent of people. That’s probably why I feel like I’ve missed out on some things like ballet and sports and stuff. I’m good with the talk. It’s the actual doing part that topples me over. There were times in the past when I settled for OKAY instead of WOW. Looking back, I know I could have done things a lot better. Which is why I’ve made a resolution to actually stick to something that I love (like writing) and work my ass off at it.

 

 

Today is a time for change. It’s time to let go of the past and work towards building a better future (I assure you, that statement did not sound like a campaign slogan in my head.) There’s so much to look forward to and refusing to let go will only hold me back from reaching my goals and achieving my dreams.

“Forgiving does not erase the bitter past. A healed memory is not a deleted memory. Instead, forgiving what we cannot forget creates a new way to remember. We change the memory of our past into a hope for our future.”

– Lewis B. Smedes

Perfect Timing!

Randomly clicking on various blog entries via the topic page is basically how I get around the bloggersphere (I hear that’s a word. Haha. 😀 ) I’ve read loads of great entries on a variety of topics and I just feel so blessed to be among such amazing and talented people.

I’m not the quickest of thinkers. I can’t squeeze out an entry every single day. I like to put a little bit of thought into what I post so I don’t come off as someone who publishes stuff just for the heck of it. That being said, it takes me a while to write stuff down and eventually turn it into a blog entry.

I’ve asked a couple of people to throw some of their thoughts my way. I’d like to know what they want me to write about so I don’t have to do a self-analysis every freakin time. Unfortunately, love (aka the boyfriend project) is a topic I am completely unfamiliar with, sex (a topic a guy friend of my suggested) is out of the question and fashion is just not me unless you’d like to read about my tops that I tend to put on the minute they get back from the wash and my 2 pairs of denim jeans. So again I say… WHAT DO I WRITE ABOUT?!

I came across Andromache’s blog today and I was really interested in the last entry posted. This blog post could not have come at a better time because quite frankly, I’m stomped.

THE BLOG PROJECT:

Day 01 : Something you hate about yourself.
Day 02 : 
Something you love about yourself.
Day 03 : 
Something you have to forgive yourself for.
Day 04 : 
Something you have to forgive someone for.
Day 05 : 
Something you hope to do in your life.
Day 06 : 
Something you hope you never have to do.
Day 07 : 
Someone who has made your life worth living for.
Day 08 : 
Someone who made your life hell, or treated you like shit.
Day 09 : 
Someone you didn’t want to let go, but just drifted.
Day 10 : 
Someone you need to let go, or wish you didn’t know.
Day 11 : 
Something people seem to compliment you the most on.
Day 12 : 
Something you never get compliments on.
Day 13 : 
A band or artist that has gotten you through some tough ass days. (write a letter.)
Day 14 : 
A hero that has let you down. (letter)
Day 15 : 
Something or someone you couldn’t live without, because you’ve tried living without it.
Day 16 : 
Someone or something you definitely could live without.
Day 17 : 
A book you’ve read that changed your views on something.
Day 18 : 
Your views on gay marriage.
Day 19 : 
What do you think of religion? Or what do you think of politics?
Day 20 : 
Your views on drugs and alcohol.
Day 21 : 
(scenario) Your best friend is in a car accident and you two got into a fight an hour before. What do you do?
Day 22 : 
Something you wish you hadn’t done in your life.
Day 23 : 
Something you wish you had done in your life.
Day 24 : 
Make a playlist to someone, and explain why you chose all the songs. (Just post the titles and artists and letter)
Day 25 : 
The reason you believe you’re still alive today.
Day 26 : 
Have you ever thought about giving up on life? If so, when and why?
Day 27 : 
What’s the best thing going for you right now?
Day 28 :
 What if you were pregnant or got someone pregnant, what would you do?
Day 29 : 
Something you hope to change about yourself. And why.
Day 30 : 
A letter to yourself, tell yourself EVERYTHING you love about yourself.

 

So there… That’s the Blog Project. 30 days of honest entries and hard hitting facts. I’ve decided to take this challenge on though I don’t promise to be consistent about my postings. Who knows, I may just get hit by the train of thought (who currently seems to be eluding me for some reason) and end up writing something AWESOME or most likely, just something completely random but still totally ME . Regardless, I’ll do my best to rock this list. 🙂

 

Every creator painfully experiences the chasm between his inner vision and its ultimate expression.  The chasm is never completely bridged.  We all have the conviction, perhaps illusory, that we have much more to say than appears on the paper.”

~Isaac Bashevis Singer


See you all on the flip side! 😀 CHEERS!